dreaming out loud. . .

Thursday, January 29, 2009

wake me up!

i've been having weird dreams these past few days.

very. weird.

first, i dreamt that i was pregnant. nine months.

the scarier part is that i was nine months but my tummy only has a small bulge! you know like maybe one or two months pregnant?

and and the scariest part is when i press my tummy, i can feel the shape of the freaking foetus!! holy crap!! and i was so shocked that i screamed and woke up. LOL.

phew. what a nightmare.

and second dream.. well, let's just say it's one of the many same-type-of-dreams i had. i dreamt that i'm dispensing in chinese. well it is something i picked up on-the-job but dreaming about it??

my lil sis kept telling me that i kept saying, "ah fasau de yau hor. san chi, ee chi liang tang zhi" (ok, please excuse my mandarin spelling!)

and and.. even spoke in Hokkien!

"ahhhh auntie ah buay sai ah, BUAAAY SAAAIII aaaaaaahhhhhh!"

YES, i screamed in my sleep.

no, no i don't usually do that!

seriously, i think i worked far too hard.

i so need a breaaak.

on a happier note: Poh Ling just gave birth today! gonna visit her tomorrow! :)

Saturday, January 17, 2009

say its true..

Do you remember when we didn't care?
We were just two kids and took the moment when it was there

Do you remember you at all
Another heart calls

I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake dreaming til the sun would wash the sky

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you

As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It's time you see my point of view

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You want to leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do
Say It's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'm sorry
So what
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there

As soon as I see you
Didn't I Didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two

Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'll never ask for anyone but you..

Another Heart Calls;
The All-American Rejects.

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i so heart this song. :)

Thursday, January 08, 2009

hello Goh Chock Tong!

"oh dear. how do i tell this to you....."

long pause.

"you're gonna be transferred to MP."

the most dreaded line after, "you're fired" is "you're transferred"

baaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.

why me?! why oh why?!!!

:(

and there she goes listing my gd points that MP needs in a worker.

flattering.

but................ MP?!!

sighs.

not that i don't like the staff there. i've been there. they're good, friendly people. responsible workers too. oh and Eve Chong is there!! (the best consolation, ever)

it's just that.. i hate the journey. i hate the route 15 takes. or 197 takes. eh.. far la.

and i have to another bus before getting on 15 or 197! thats TWO buses to and from work!! TWO!!

*lazy*

AND.. i will have to take the early shift and that means waking up early.

baaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i never thought i'd say this. but i'll miss TM/Century Square. haha. *loser*

and i'll never get to experience T1!

baaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

oh and and and.. might i add that the patients there are too well-educated? if you make a slight mistake, or skipped their numbers or whatever thing that upsets them.. they'll use this MP-popular line: "eh, Goh Chock Tong my friend, you know?!"

um.. right. he's my friend too.

so yea. i guess for every cloud there's a silver lining?

insyaAllah, things might get better.

like.. the food there! yahuuuuu! more varieties!

and Parkway Parade!! with 2 Cotton On outlets!!

and Banquet with my Yong Tau Foo!! :D

um.. oh and Eve Chong!

and um.. yea, that's basically it.

oh well..

you know my transfer to MP makes me all the more determined to kick some ass! in volleyball i mean. HEH.

feeling patriotic here! i wanna win for TAMPINES!

though i still need help in serving the ball. and hitting the ball. and um.. not covering my head when the ball is coming right at me. i tend to do that.

it's a phobia thing. -.-

and guess what colour represents Tampines.

yellow, yellow dirty, pervertic fellow!

yay. -.-

let's kick some HQ, BM and GE ass baby! :D

Monday, January 05, 2009

yesterday just took me hostage

"do you think he misses you?"

that was what Lut asked me the other day.

well, my answer would be.. i wouldn't know. cos i told him not to contact me anymore.

and even if he did tell me he misses me.. he'd change his mind in the next few days. like he did the other time. and the other 2 times. it's never a definite answer with him.

if you ask anything pertaining his feelings.. his answers would be: maybe, sometimes, sort of.

and if you ask me if i miss him ?

well, it'd be yes. i'll always miss him. even after everything that happened. i guess that's the permanent effect of first love ?

and i'm sure that he's enjoying his singlehood ? which was what he wanted. just as i'm enjoying mine.

or found someone who'd love him more than i do.

did. did love him. did.

did.

i have to remind myself that time and time again.

anyway ! i'm having a volleyball tournament this Saturday at Hougang ! HAHA ! yaaa me ! volleyball ! LOL ! seriously, i can't hit the ball for nuts. but i'm enjoying it ! haha. you should see my colleagues. satu-satu semangat tapi sungguh tak boleh make it laaaa ! hahahaha !

well, except for Dr T. wah pro k. i have yet to see how Dr S. plays. maybe he sucks as bad as us. haha. all i know is.. i don't like his name.

i'm so gonna enjoy losing ! haha !