i daydream alot.
thinking too much and being paranoid might just be the words to describe me.
oh, and clumsy too.
elijah wood is LOVE.
smiles totally make my day.
adores family, friends, Allah.
absolutely in love with chocolates.
i psychobabble much.
am still looking for my fairytale ending.
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past tense;
chitterchatter;
amin x
arrohman
ayeesha x badriah
ben x eddy
fadzillah x faisal
faizah x fang shi
farhana x faris
fazlin x fiza
hafeez m. x hafeez s.
haslinda x huda
is'sha x kak tini
liyana x lutfiah
muslihah x nadiah
nisha x nooreen
radiah x rahman
rasyiqa x rufihaza
salman x salwa
shahdon x shima
siti x siti nadiah
siva x syahira
xue yin x zahidah
friends;
ayeesha x badriah
ben x eddy
fadzillah x faisal
faizah x fang shi
farhana x faris
fazlin x fiza
hafeez m. x hafeez s.
haslinda x huda
is'sha x kak tini
liyana x lutfiah
muslihah x nadiah
nisha x nooreen
radiah x rahman
rasyiqa x rufihaza
salman x salwa
shahdon x shima
siti x siti nadiah
siva x syahira
xue yin x zahidah
friends;
Thursday, July 31, 2008
laughing gas
i know i laugh at practically everything. some find it amusing that i laugh at the littlest things. some like it cos i appreciate their humour no matter how lame their jokes might be. others find it boring cos making me laugh is definitely not a challenge. at all. hoho.
anyway anyway anyway !
i found these two jokes in the June issue of Reader's Digest (courtesy of Din, who gave me all the recent ones that he has cos he knows i love to read them ! hehe !) which i find totally HILARIOUS !
--
Joke 1:
Rob and Tom apply for the same job. They took the same written test.
"You both got the same number of questions wrong," the HR person tells them. "But Rob gets the job."
"If both of us get the same number of questions wrong.. then how come he gets the job ?" asks Tom indignantly.
"Well," says the HR person, "one of his wrong answers was better than yours."
"How can that be ?!"
"For problem number 46, Rob wrote: I don't know. You wrote: me neither.
--
HAHAHAHA. funny right right right ??
--
Joke 2:
Norman is 90 years old and has played golf ever day since retiring. But one evening, he arrives home looking downcast.
"i'm giving up," he says. "My eyesight's so bad that once i hit the ball, i can't see where it has gone."
His sympathetic wife makes him a cup of tea. "Why don't you bring Fred with you ?"
"What use would your brother be ?", sighs Norman. "He's 103."
"That may be but his eyesight's perfect."
So the next day, Norman and Fred head off to the golf course. Norman tees up, takes an almighty swing and arrows the ball down the fairway.
"Gosh. That felt good. You see where it went ?" asks Norman.
"Of course !" says Fred.
"So where is it ?"
"I can't remember."
--
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! JOKE OF THE CENTURY ! :D
anyway anyway anyway !
i found these two jokes in the June issue of Reader's Digest (courtesy of Din, who gave me all the recent ones that he has cos he knows i love to read them ! hehe !) which i find totally HILARIOUS !
--
Joke 1:
Rob and Tom apply for the same job. They took the same written test.
"You both got the same number of questions wrong," the HR person tells them. "But Rob gets the job."
"If both of us get the same number of questions wrong.. then how come he gets the job ?" asks Tom indignantly.
"Well," says the HR person, "one of his wrong answers was better than yours."
"How can that be ?!"
"For problem number 46, Rob wrote: I don't know. You wrote: me neither.
--
HAHAHAHA. funny right right right ??
--
Joke 2:
Norman is 90 years old and has played golf ever day since retiring. But one evening, he arrives home looking downcast.
"i'm giving up," he says. "My eyesight's so bad that once i hit the ball, i can't see where it has gone."
His sympathetic wife makes him a cup of tea. "Why don't you bring Fred with you ?"
"What use would your brother be ?", sighs Norman. "He's 103."
"That may be but his eyesight's perfect."
So the next day, Norman and Fred head off to the golf course. Norman tees up, takes an almighty swing and arrows the ball down the fairway.
"Gosh. That felt good. You see where it went ?" asks Norman.
"Of course !" says Fred.
"So where is it ?"
"I can't remember."
--
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! JOKE OF THE CENTURY ! :D
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
heartbreaker
did anyone try too hard ?
well i guess i did.
i guess i did, alright.
he'll.
break.
my.
heart.
booo. i miss Eve Chong. :(
i think i'm more 'hardworking' now that she's transferred to MP.
cos i don't talk or laugh much when i'm at center ever since she's gone.
that equals boredom. and when there's nothing to pack, i'd have to find some other things to do like topping up and pre-packing just so i won't glance at my watch to see the time move oh so very slowly.
usually we'd be laughing. talking about movies and crappy stuffs, while working. isn't it much better that way ? and of cos, we'd get scolded by Supervisor for talking too loud or laughing too much. as though we cannot multi-task. tsk ! we are women hokay, Mr Supervisor.
and Eve's been bored to tears at MP. cos she's the only youngster there amongst the antiques. hehe.
i think our Durian feast is still on ? heh.
well i guess i did.
i guess i did, alright.
he'll.
break.
my.
heart.
booo. i miss Eve Chong. :(
i think i'm more 'hardworking' now that she's transferred to MP.
cos i don't talk or laugh much when i'm at center ever since she's gone.
that equals boredom. and when there's nothing to pack, i'd have to find some other things to do like topping up and pre-packing just so i won't glance at my watch to see the time move oh so very slowly.
usually we'd be laughing. talking about movies and crappy stuffs, while working. isn't it much better that way ? and of cos, we'd get scolded by Supervisor for talking too loud or laughing too much. as though we cannot multi-task. tsk ! we are women hokay, Mr Supervisor.
and Eve's been bored to tears at MP. cos she's the only youngster there amongst the antiques. hehe.
i think our Durian feast is still on ? heh.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
rid you from my bones
and I am a writer, writer of fictions
i am the heart that you call home
and i've written pages upon pages
trying to rid you from my bones
and if you don't love me let me go...
met up with the Jurong gang like finally !
well, not the whole gang cos Jeannie succumbed to E. Coli (diarrhea) and Casey had work and a date with her bf so it was just my aiai, Nurul, Shuhada, Noora and me !
the singing was fun. but the service there sucks. can only depend on the cute waiter, who was sooo cute with his, "what about your drink ?" *pointing at me* all of a sudden while on his way out. terkejut aku ! haha !
the mic sucks.
the drinks suck.
- we only get our order an hour+ after we started our session.
the service suck. did i mention that already ? heh.
- the staff went in and said, "last song" TWICE when it wasn't even 15mins to 9pm.
the room was small.
and not so sound proof.
so yea. no more Cashbox, please.
oh and we had a mini celebration for my aiai cos her birthday was on 18th July. i hope you loved the cake ! and the presents ! though it sucks that you can't wear those pretty earrings. please get your ears pierced, thanks. hehe ! :D
photos will be up when they load them online. quai tien lei ! wo yau kan wode selenge face ! heeeee !
nearing the end of the day, had a girls' talk with my aiai and Noora cos Nurul and Shuhada had to leave early.
and to tell you the truth, i didn't feel like going home sey. it was so nice, just sitting there and talking. okay more like shouting cos we were seated next to the stupid speaker. and shared the table with 4 Filipinos who, i think, could't help but eavesdrop cos we were so loud haha. but all was well. talked about work and of course, boys. who pretty much ruin me and my aiai's lives. haha. our situations were so similar (and happened at around the same time too) that i can swear they can be related. i mean the gundus. they might be long lost brothers or something !
talked our hearts out and as if on cue, McDonalds just had to play such sad, heartbreaking songs, amongst cool ones too.
and yea.. as i said to them.. i don't think i can handle seeing him again. worst still if he is with another girl. good thing he goes out at odd times and stays on the other side of the island.. and doesn't use public transport. heh. so, yea.. those make it easier for me to get over him. :)
and Noora congratulated me. she said i finally referred him as the ex-boyfriend. cos i was single for the longest time before i met him. and when we first got together.. it was a bit weird referring to him as my boyfriend. and then i got used to it.. it came out so naturally.. and for the first few weeks after our break up.. i still refer him by name or "he". and now, the ex. i think i'm getting a hang on this whole get-over-him thing !! :D
oh by the way.. someone on my MSN put this up as his nick, "can you please move the (bad word) on and stop talking about getting over it for the millionth time ! it's so boring !"
LOL.
he wasn't talking about me cos we were hi-bye poly course mates so he couldn't possibly know about my life but it sort of got to me. haha.
yes yes.. for those who feel his "pain", please don't visit this blog. but i can assure you that this blog will be Suffiyan-free in a few months' time.
sabar tu separuh daripada iman okay ! :D
oh oh oh ! i wanna go to Singfest ! i wanna watch Lost Prophets ! One Republic ! Jamie Scott ! Jared Leto from 30 Seconds to Mars (yes i only fancy him hahaha) and and and FREAKING TRAVIS LA !! :(
sponsor, can ? pretty please ? HAH.
i am the heart that you call home
and i've written pages upon pages
trying to rid you from my bones
and if you don't love me let me go...
met up with the Jurong gang like finally !
well, not the whole gang cos Jeannie succumbed to E. Coli (diarrhea) and Casey had work and a date with her bf so it was just my aiai, Nurul, Shuhada, Noora and me !
the singing was fun. but the service there sucks. can only depend on the cute waiter, who was sooo cute with his, "what about your drink ?" *pointing at me* all of a sudden while on his way out. terkejut aku ! haha !
the mic sucks.
the drinks suck.
- we only get our order an hour+ after we started our session.
the service suck. did i mention that already ? heh.
- the staff went in and said, "last song" TWICE when it wasn't even 15mins to 9pm.
the room was small.
and not so sound proof.
so yea. no more Cashbox, please.
oh and we had a mini celebration for my aiai cos her birthday was on 18th July. i hope you loved the cake ! and the presents ! though it sucks that you can't wear those pretty earrings. please get your ears pierced, thanks. hehe ! :D
photos will be up when they load them online. quai tien lei ! wo yau kan wode selenge face ! heeeee !
nearing the end of the day, had a girls' talk with my aiai and Noora cos Nurul and Shuhada had to leave early.
and to tell you the truth, i didn't feel like going home sey. it was so nice, just sitting there and talking. okay more like shouting cos we were seated next to the stupid speaker. and shared the table with 4 Filipinos who, i think, could't help but eavesdrop cos we were so loud haha. but all was well. talked about work and of course, boys. who pretty much ruin me and my aiai's lives. haha. our situations were so similar (and happened at around the same time too) that i can swear they can be related. i mean the gundus. they might be long lost brothers or something !
talked our hearts out and as if on cue, McDonalds just had to play such sad, heartbreaking songs, amongst cool ones too.
and yea.. as i said to them.. i don't think i can handle seeing him again. worst still if he is with another girl. good thing he goes out at odd times and stays on the other side of the island.. and doesn't use public transport. heh. so, yea.. those make it easier for me to get over him. :)
and Noora congratulated me. she said i finally referred him as the ex-boyfriend. cos i was single for the longest time before i met him. and when we first got together.. it was a bit weird referring to him as my boyfriend. and then i got used to it.. it came out so naturally.. and for the first few weeks after our break up.. i still refer him by name or "he". and now, the ex. i think i'm getting a hang on this whole get-over-him thing !! :D
oh by the way.. someone on my MSN put this up as his nick, "can you please move the (bad word) on and stop talking about getting over it for the millionth time ! it's so boring !"
LOL.
he wasn't talking about me cos we were hi-bye poly course mates so he couldn't possibly know about my life but it sort of got to me. haha.
yes yes.. for those who feel his "pain", please don't visit this blog. but i can assure you that this blog will be Suffiyan-free in a few months' time.
sabar tu separuh daripada iman okay ! :D
oh oh oh ! i wanna go to Singfest ! i wanna watch Lost Prophets ! One Republic ! Jamie Scott ! Jared Leto from 30 Seconds to Mars (yes i only fancy him hahaha) and and and FREAKING TRAVIS LA !! :(
sponsor, can ? pretty please ? HAH.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
how we used to be
you used to talk to me like,
i was the only one around..
you used to lean on me,
the only other choice was falling down..
you used to walk with me like,
we had no where we needed to go..
nice and slow..
i just realised that i can't close that chapter just yet.
but i'm halfway there. :)
i can't wait for Kbox this Saturday !
i miss the Jurong gang !!
i was the only one around..
you used to lean on me,
the only other choice was falling down..
you used to walk with me like,
we had no where we needed to go..
nice and slow..
i just realised that i can't close that chapter just yet.
but i'm halfway there. :)
i can't wait for Kbox this Saturday !
i miss the Jurong gang !!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
blood is thicker than water
every month, at around the same time, every woman would feel very emotional. there's no escaping for the men.
and when you meet this particular woman, who's already an emotional basketcase, who also will experience this kind of emotional mood swing, you get a very, very, very emotional woman. hah.
and yes, i'm experiencing it.. right about now. and who else but that gundu-samy has to pop up in my mind.
i said, i missed you.
he said, i miss you too. but i need more time.
and that very line made up my mind for me. i am not gonna wait. again.
i thought i could wait and move on at the same time. haha. yes, it sounded silly but i thought it was possible.
but every little freaking thing reminds me of him !
go to a levi's store, him.
adidas, him.
see someone on a scrambler zooming by, him.
n95, him.
starbucks cheesecake, him.
m1 store, him.
honda stream, him.
yep, LITTLEST THINGS.
and the thing that i miss the most.. is the feeling of being loved. sigh.
the other time i was having dinner with my BFFs and they were mentioning something about the colour red.. and what did i say oh so randomly ?
"Suffiyan suka red."
yep. i said that. out of the blue !
luckily they didn't slap me. though they should cos i still haven't wake up from this fantasy that he'd change and we can all live happily ever after.
HAH ! like that's ever gonna happen.
so this is an entry, to close this chapter of my life and move on to the next, hopefully more worthy, chapter. :)
and.. whenever i'm down. there's always one person who is always there for me. and i treasure you with every atom of my heart.
this person made me this the other day, when i was feeling really down:
so sweeeeeeeeeeeet right. :)
and she gives me a hug whenever i need one.
she's none other than..
Nuraisha Binte Sorani aka Gudik-kun.
I LOVE YOU GUDIK ! :)
and when you meet this particular woman, who's already an emotional basketcase, who also will experience this kind of emotional mood swing, you get a very, very, very emotional woman. hah.
and yes, i'm experiencing it.. right about now. and who else but that gundu-samy has to pop up in my mind.
i said, i missed you.
he said, i miss you too. but i need more time.
and that very line made up my mind for me. i am not gonna wait. again.
i thought i could wait and move on at the same time. haha. yes, it sounded silly but i thought it was possible.
but every little freaking thing reminds me of him !
go to a levi's store, him.
adidas, him.
see someone on a scrambler zooming by, him.
n95, him.
starbucks cheesecake, him.
m1 store, him.
honda stream, him.
yep, LITTLEST THINGS.
and the thing that i miss the most.. is the feeling of being loved. sigh.
the other time i was having dinner with my BFFs and they were mentioning something about the colour red.. and what did i say oh so randomly ?
"Suffiyan suka red."
yep. i said that. out of the blue !
luckily they didn't slap me. though they should cos i still haven't wake up from this fantasy that he'd change and we can all live happily ever after.
HAH ! like that's ever gonna happen.
so this is an entry, to close this chapter of my life and move on to the next, hopefully more worthy, chapter. :)
and.. whenever i'm down. there's always one person who is always there for me. and i treasure you with every atom of my heart.
this person made me this the other day, when i was feeling really down:
so sweeeeeeeeeeeet right. :)
and she gives me a hug whenever i need one.
she's none other than..
Nuraisha Binte Sorani aka Gudik-kun.
I LOVE YOU GUDIK ! :)
Thursday, July 10, 2008
leaving on a jetplane
tomorrow, 11th July 2008..
while it will be a happy occasion for my lil sister (it's her birthday !), it will be a sad one for Mugchicks & Co.
cos tomorrow, our group 'badut' aka Aizuddin aka my 'twin brother' will be leaving us for Australia !
booooooooohooooooooohooooooooohoooooooooo ! :(
Suhaila and I spent time with him yesterday but it seemed like it wasn't enough. sighs. so sadddd. he'll be there for 3 years ? (i think) and only coming back on December every year ! :(
i'm so gonna miss him. well, WE ALL will !
so here's my heartfelt message to you (still waiting for ours !):
thanks for making us laugh with your silly + lame jokes ! though some of us don't understand your jokes due to constant use of your 'codes' but being your 'twin sister', i.. (unfortunately :p ) understood them. haha.
thanks for being the only guy (besides my dad) who cooked me lunch ! haha ! so shweeeeeeeet right ?! and it was a delicious meal too, okay. don't underestimate this wannabe chef. :D thanks again for that. :) kay set, i know you'll be waiting for my (stale) asam pedas. haha !
thanks for accompanying me through my 12pm lunches ! :)
thanks for being there through my break up phase. the only guy who consistently consoled me when i cried. :)
there are so many other things ! but overall, thanks for being a great 'brother' to me ! yes, you're the 'twin brother' i never had. (but i'm still older than you. heh.)
must keep in touch okay ! through e-mails or something. and we want our heartfelt speech !
how i wish i can be at the airport tomorrow. :(
oh yeaa.. please cut down on your games ! and study smart yea ? make your parents proud and insyaAllah, it will all be worth the ka-chings. (see ? i sound like a big sister to him already. haha.)
take care dear brother. and we'll see you in November ! :D
gosh. i look constipated. hah !
while it will be a happy occasion for my lil sister (it's her birthday !), it will be a sad one for Mugchicks & Co.
cos tomorrow, our group 'badut' aka Aizuddin aka my 'twin brother' will be leaving us for Australia !
booooooooohooooooooohooooooooohoooooooooo ! :(
Suhaila and I spent time with him yesterday but it seemed like it wasn't enough. sighs. so sadddd. he'll be there for 3 years ? (i think) and only coming back on December every year ! :(
i'm so gonna miss him. well, WE ALL will !
so here's my heartfelt message to you (still waiting for ours !):
thanks for making us laugh with your silly + lame jokes ! though some of us don't understand your jokes due to constant use of your 'codes' but being your 'twin sister', i.. (unfortunately :p ) understood them. haha.
thanks for being the only guy (besides my dad) who cooked me lunch ! haha ! so shweeeeeeeet right ?! and it was a delicious meal too, okay. don't underestimate this wannabe chef. :D thanks again for that. :) kay set, i know you'll be waiting for my (stale) asam pedas. haha !
thanks for accompanying me through my 12pm lunches ! :)
thanks for being there through my break up phase. the only guy who consistently consoled me when i cried. :)
there are so many other things ! but overall, thanks for being a great 'brother' to me ! yes, you're the 'twin brother' i never had. (but i'm still older than you. heh.)
must keep in touch okay ! through e-mails or something. and we want our heartfelt speech !
how i wish i can be at the airport tomorrow. :(
oh yeaa.. please cut down on your games ! and study smart yea ? make your parents proud and insyaAllah, it will all be worth the ka-chings. (see ? i sound like a big sister to him already. haha.)
take care dear brother. and we'll see you in November ! :D
gosh. i look constipated. hah !
Sunday, July 06, 2008
selfish, yes you are !
cheers..
thanks for everything.
you hung me out by my heart.
you're just so selfish, Jean.
yes you are!
hey you..
threw it all away,
by holding everything in.
hey Jean don't rock the boat,
when you can't swim
with a perfect understanding of the finer things in life..
a quite alarming knack of knowing when to twist the knife..
oooooooooh
selfish Jean!
here's to you..
who read everything..
left it out on the shelf.
there's no one else to blame..
except yourself.
well a perfect combination of good etiquette and charm..
you keep the chocolate biscuits wired to a car alarm.
oooooooooh
selfish Jean!
well i'm standing on my own..
and this house is not a home.
it's so sad to see you go.
things are high, things are low.
and it's good to know you know..
if you've got nowhere to go..
well you could spend the night with me.
there will be no guarantee that I'll be here.
in the morning.
or any time that you call.
i hear you snoring Jean..
through the wall.
so hey..
here's to everything..
to peace and love in our time.
ah Jean the slate is clean
i guess we're fine..
well I don't expect a miracle..
not asking you to change..
if you can't see me happy,
well just look the other way.
oooooooooh
selfish Jean !
selfish jean,
by Travis.
i think it's a cute song ! :)
thanks for everything.
you hung me out by my heart.
you're just so selfish, Jean.
yes you are!
hey you..
threw it all away,
by holding everything in.
hey Jean don't rock the boat,
when you can't swim
with a perfect understanding of the finer things in life..
a quite alarming knack of knowing when to twist the knife..
oooooooooh
selfish Jean!
here's to you..
who read everything..
left it out on the shelf.
there's no one else to blame..
except yourself.
well a perfect combination of good etiquette and charm..
you keep the chocolate biscuits wired to a car alarm.
oooooooooh
selfish Jean!
well i'm standing on my own..
and this house is not a home.
it's so sad to see you go.
things are high, things are low.
and it's good to know you know..
if you've got nowhere to go..
well you could spend the night with me.
there will be no guarantee that I'll be here.
in the morning.
or any time that you call.
i hear you snoring Jean..
through the wall.
so hey..
here's to everything..
to peace and love in our time.
ah Jean the slate is clean
i guess we're fine..
well I don't expect a miracle..
not asking you to change..
if you can't see me happy,
well just look the other way.
oooooooooh
selfish Jean !
selfish jean,
by Travis.
i think it's a cute song ! :)
Friday, July 04, 2008
footprints
know what..
i just realised that i've changed quite alot.
for example, i was never the one to wear any other coloured tudung except black. i know, this might sound so minor and insignificant to you but it isn't to me !
for the whole of my poly life (and even before that) i wore nothing but black. so people who know me refer me as the 'black tudung girl' (who would have guessed. hah.) and there are others like, 'black metal girl' (cos black tudung and black eyeliner is like.. erm.. cool. HAH !) and yadda yadda yadda. and... i remember trying out a cream coloured tudung for school one day and i was freaking paranoid lor ! you can ask Yasmin. haha. going to the toilet every few minutes just to check if i looked OKAY. (yes, paranoia + vanity is never a good combination !) haha ! i felt funny, hokay. i know.. it's just a colour, right. right.. i don't know how to explain it but i felt uncomfortable. like reaaaaaally uncomfortable. heh.
so yea. when i met him, i started to experiment with other colours. (cos he wasn't into the whole 'black metal' thing. hah.) so yeaa, now i'm even wearing PINK ! and loving it lor ! haha.
and i used to dislike red and i hated green ! but yea, he loves red and his mum favours green, so hence my wearing red or green top. lol.
okay i know.. the first few paragraphs are so stupid. talking about coloured tudungs and tops. pfft. BIG DEAL, right.
well what i'm trying to say is (though might not be directly related)..
people you meet leave footprints in your life.
they influence you with their thoughts and feelings.
open up your eyes to new things.
bring you to places you've never been before.
change you.
and makes you feel things that you've never felt before.
but those who matter are those whose footprints stay and never fade away.
these are the people you should treasure.
not those whose footprints are transitory. fades away when high tide comes.
i've realised that i shouldn't cry for being unloved by a human being.
cos after all, he is ONLY HUMAN.
what's more important is getting the love from God.
no, i'm not turning religiously extremist here.
i'm just looking at the positive side.
there's more to life than seeking love from a fellow human being.
cos our feelings.. they come and go.
it's mostly directly proportional to the external environment (sounds science-y. i like !) like:
- observations.
- opinions.
and peer pressure.
so i don't care what others, who don't matter, think or feel about me anymore. cos i'm Norhafizah Sorani and i'll always be the second child of Mr Sorani (okay, random). if they can't appreciate me and takes me for granted (he very knows who he is !) then be it.
be yourself and say what you feel.
cos like Dr Seuss says,
those who matter, don't mind. and those who mind, don't matter.
and i've also realised that at this stage, i'm not looking for a 'boyfriend'. i'm looking for a partner. to be with me for the rest of my life. yes, committment. a word that sends shivers down any man's spine. but believe it or not, this is an advice from a guy friend of mine. and thinking back, he wasn't and still isn't that type of guy. he is still 'immature' and is definitely not ready for a serious relationship.
and "if the shoe doesn't fit, change the shoe."
i just realised that i've changed quite alot.
for example, i was never the one to wear any other coloured tudung except black. i know, this might sound so minor and insignificant to you but it isn't to me !
for the whole of my poly life (and even before that) i wore nothing but black. so people who know me refer me as the 'black tudung girl' (who would have guessed. hah.) and there are others like, 'black metal girl' (cos black tudung and black eyeliner is like.. erm.. cool. HAH !) and yadda yadda yadda. and... i remember trying out a cream coloured tudung for school one day and i was freaking paranoid lor ! you can ask Yasmin. haha. going to the toilet every few minutes just to check if i looked OKAY. (yes, paranoia + vanity is never a good combination !) haha ! i felt funny, hokay. i know.. it's just a colour, right. right.. i don't know how to explain it but i felt uncomfortable. like reaaaaaally uncomfortable. heh.
so yea. when i met him, i started to experiment with other colours. (cos he wasn't into the whole 'black metal' thing. hah.) so yeaa, now i'm even wearing PINK ! and loving it lor ! haha.
and i used to dislike red and i hated green ! but yea, he loves red and his mum favours green, so hence my wearing red or green top. lol.
okay i know.. the first few paragraphs are so stupid. talking about coloured tudungs and tops. pfft. BIG DEAL, right.
well what i'm trying to say is (though might not be directly related)..
people you meet leave footprints in your life.
they influence you with their thoughts and feelings.
open up your eyes to new things.
bring you to places you've never been before.
change you.
and makes you feel things that you've never felt before.
but those who matter are those whose footprints stay and never fade away.
these are the people you should treasure.
not those whose footprints are transitory. fades away when high tide comes.
i've realised that i shouldn't cry for being unloved by a human being.
cos after all, he is ONLY HUMAN.
what's more important is getting the love from God.
no, i'm not turning religiously extremist here.
i'm just looking at the positive side.
there's more to life than seeking love from a fellow human being.
cos our feelings.. they come and go.
it's mostly directly proportional to the external environment (sounds science-y. i like !) like:
- observations.
- opinions.
and peer pressure.
so i don't care what others, who don't matter, think or feel about me anymore. cos i'm Norhafizah Sorani and i'll always be the second child of Mr Sorani (okay, random). if they can't appreciate me and takes me for granted (he very knows who he is !) then be it.
be yourself and say what you feel.
cos like Dr Seuss says,
those who matter, don't mind. and those who mind, don't matter.
and i've also realised that at this stage, i'm not looking for a 'boyfriend'. i'm looking for a partner. to be with me for the rest of my life. yes, committment. a word that sends shivers down any man's spine. but believe it or not, this is an advice from a guy friend of mine. and thinking back, he wasn't and still isn't that type of guy. he is still 'immature' and is definitely not ready for a serious relationship.
and "if the shoe doesn't fit, change the shoe."
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
destiny
invitations only grant farewells.
but sometimes goodbye is the only way for destiny.
but sometimes goodbye is the only way for destiny.