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my name is fizah sorani
i daydream alot.
thinking too much and being paranoid might just be the words to describe me.
oh, and clumsy too.
elijah wood is LOVE.
smiles totally make my day.
adores family, friends, Allah.
absolutely in love with chocolates.
i psychobabble much.
am still looking for my fairytale ending.



chitterchatter;


bituwin - template
dementee - image

Words from Before It's Too Late by Goo Goo Dolls.

credits;

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Taggy Tag-Tag*

it seems like forever since i blogged that i forgot my user id ! that's the STM kicking in. yep, not getting any younger.

anywaaaaaaaaaays, i'm here to do a survey. tagged by dearest Salwa. woohoo, thanks ! da lama aku tak buat survey. hee !

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1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
alamak, pimple ni sebok sey.

2. Say something random.
Shayne Ward's album's sappy and boring. like, really eh.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
chipsmore ? i'm hungry la.

4. Favorite planet?
Krypton :D

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
some unknown person. still a mystery to me.

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
The Feeling's I Want You Now.

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
TP orientation t-shirt la. U.G.L.Y ok. now they have jersey-looking shirts. bloody hell.

8. Describe yourself in one phrase?
i'm paranoid and confusing.

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
look Ma, no shoes !

10. Bright or Dark Room?
dark.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
kelakar giler. kelakar and giler. :p

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
the one that's mine ?

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
dreaming of Milo Ventimiglia. really ! but i forgot what the dream was about. =_="

14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
Sajeedah saying thanks to me.

15. Where is your letter box?
downstairs.

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
otak.

17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
lil gudik !

18. Last furry thing you touched?
some freaky looking rat-toy gudik has. i know, of all soft toys. weird.

19. How many drugs have you done in the last day?
lost count. :D i work in a pharmacy after all ;)

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
who develops films anymore anyways ?

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
5. the age when i poked my friend in the eye with a pencil. seriously, when else can you get away with something like that ?! :D

22. Your worst enemy?
me.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
a layout that says, "THINK MILK". don't ask.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"pacaran tu macam girlfriend, boyfriend". lil gudik was watching an indonesian show and asked me what that means. =_="

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
FLY !! like Milo in Heroes !! LOVE !

26. Do you like someone?
i think so.

27. The last song you listened to?
Shayne Ward - I Cry. alamak, lemah k lagu. don't know why i'm listening to it even. =_="

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
of course ! it's lil gudik, my sister !!

29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
ok, my current temporary superior. not only punch her, i'd snap her neck like a twig. honestly, i would.

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
the carpet.

31. What do you want now?
watch Heroes. still at episode 3. *beats the living crap out of the PC*.

32. Current worry?
money for further studies.

33. Next holiday?
the word "holiday" doesn't exists in my dictionary. so don't know what that means.

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i tag.. Xue Yin, Fang Shi, Naddee, Lutty (although i know her blog's dead anyhow. hoho.), Raddee, Fiza, Siva, Is'sha, Eeqa and Shyna !

do the stupid survey, people !

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Single, That's How I Wanna Be*

you know what i hate about being single ?

it's the fact that everyone around you (be it single, gay or married) asks you the same question: when are you going to get a boyfriend, get married and settle down ?

wahsey. you think what ? just snap your fingers and voila~, The One just falls from the sky onto your lap ? is that it ?

and when i give the answer: when i'm ready. :D

and what's their next question ?

when is that ?

good question ! if i know when, then i wouldn't still be wondering, would i ?

bleargh.

i'm sorry. i'm in a cranky mood right now. my nose all stuffed up and i can't read a single page of the book i borrowed without constantly sneezing. bloody flu !!

good thing i'm on leave. which fyi, is taken at the wrong timing because almost everyone i know is broke (including me) so going to the movies is definitely out of the picture.

so i'm stuck at home, reading, watching Heroes and playing Imagination Games with my lil sister. which i kinda like though, relaxing at home.

ok, i'm confusing you guys. do i or don't i like staying at home and away from work ?

a definite: YES.

back to the being single part. to be honest, i'd love to be in love. i'd love to be one who can't live without that significant other. totally love-dependent (sounds pathetic, but yeah). i'd love to be one who falls for a sweet and amazing guy instantly and lives happily ever after (ok, that was something out of one of my fantasies). i'd love to be the girl who gets the prince and beats all other girls at it. i mean, come on. it's every girl's dream to be with a Knight in Shining Armour.

but the fact is, i'm not that person. not yet, at least. i really can't imagine myself depending on this one person for a lifetime of happiness. though, i'm twenty and not getting any younger.

and it's really hard for me to open up to the opposite gender, be it close or not. it's like telling somebody else's secret. only it's mine. and it's not a secret. erm, get it ?

ok, don't think anyone gets that. how can they ? i don't even know what i mean by that. hah.

you can tell i'm a very confusing person. i think i confuse myself more than i confuse others. hah.

and so, when another of my girlfriends, Liyana, asked me this: you can't stay single forever you know. when else if not now ?

and my answer to that ? when i finally found my Wentworth Miller.

man, i love being in my own Fantasy World ! :D

Sunday, January 14, 2007

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY ZAHIDAH !!

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21 ! she's finally 21 ! a VERY important age !!

we love you loads, girl and may Allah s.w.t BLESS you many-many, babe !! amin~

P.S: visit z's blog for more information on her feelings about her overwhelming birthday experience ! :D


Friday, January 12, 2007

At Random*

i'm actually eating fish with rice and blogging at the same time. yep. cool or what ?

i'm like so freaking hungry these days, God knows why. and it's not whatever that you're thinking. hah.

know what i've been eating during lunch for the past almost-two weeks ?

Bee Hoon Hongkong. my childhood favourite dish la ! and i'm not sick of eating it everyday cos it's ta-ta-ta-tasty-tasty~ heh.

well, i'm what they call a Creature Of Habit. me and Change, don't get along very well. so yea, i'd rather stick to the traditionals.

anywaaaaays, i'm here to blog about an eventful weekday, today's yesterday a.k.a Thursday.

first, i got approached by a weirdo. and then at work, got tangled up in a misunderstanding involving a handphone.. and a bangla.

i was on a late train to work (cos my shift changed to 9.15am-5.45pm to accommodate the increased patient load) when i saw this really familiar face. it was one of my bestie's "stalker". and it so happened that he saw me too, and got into the same Goddamned cabin.

i was freaking out already, still remembering the incidents involving him and my bestie. err.. let's not go into that, shall we ?

as i was saying, we were in the same cabin and as usual, i tried to look cool, staring beyond the window and he was standing just a few metres in front of me. at the corner of my eye, i realised that he kept looking at me la. don't get me wrong, i'm not what Malays call, "shiok sendiri" k. he really was looking at me in a funny way.

shoots shoots shoots.

he was still looking at me funny.

crap.

i think i know why he looked at me funny. i've seen him 1000x in school before. and that's probably why he approached me.

not the, hello-how-are-you approach. it was the wave-in-the-face (he literally did that, ok !) approach.

i was so freaked, though moments before i had a feeling that he'd talk to me sooner or later.

crap.

him: "you're from TP, right ?"
me: "ah.. yah"
him: "no wonder. you look really familiar"
me: "err. ok"

and i shut up until the cabin emptied, and i moved waaaay in.

i know ! i was harsh, right ?! but heck la. if you were me and you know exactly who he was, you would have ignored him totally. at least i replied. heh.

FREAKY LAR OK.

what if i really didn't know him ? i'd think, he's my stalker. hoho ! scary !

so, note to self: never and i mean, never.. take the late train. even if your shift starts later.

ok, now to bangla incident.

this happened at work, nearing the end of the day. this bangla dude wanted to claim his MC to certify his absence from work. since he hasn't paid the remaining 17bucks+ bill, he couldn't. but he didn't have enough money. so he went home or somewhere to get the money.

when he left, a cashier-colleague of mine saw a Siemens mobile phone on the counter, near to where he stood. so she thought it was his, and placed in the basket together with the medicine and passed it to me. when i saw the phone, i was like, "what ? he left his handphone too ?"
and my colleague said, "yah, it was at the counter."

so i, figured it was his too, placed inside the plastic bag containing his medicine.

my another colleague, Bahari, went.. "wah, Siemens handphone sia.. but $17 bill cannot pay. bluff sia"

i couldn't agree more. i mean, the handphone was so sleek and cool, ok ! surely he could pay the meagre $17.

about an hour later, the bangla came back with the money. after i dispensed his medicine...

me: "wah, your phone also leave here ah."
bangla: *smiling but looking blur at the same time*
me: *knows that he didn't understand what i said*
Nicholas (the cisco dude): *takes the phone and show it to him* "ah, your handphone ah. don't anyhow leave it."
bangla dude: *blur face* "huh ? handphone ?"
Nicholas: "yah. nah" *passes him the handphone*
bangla dude: "this one not my handphone ! this one, my one" *takes out HIS handphone from pocket*

us: GASPS.

turned out, it was someone else's phone la sia !!

hahahaha. funny right ?! funny la !! you should have seen the bangla dude's blur face when he pulled out his handphone ! FREAKING FUNNY LAR.

and our reaction to the shocking truth. HAHA !

i was laughing la ! though it was a serious matter. hoho. couldn't help it. i guess sometimes, i laugh at the wrong time. hehe.

Xue Yin ! you should have been there la ! i bet we'd be the only ones laughing our butts off, man ! see ! who ask you to take leave this week ?! hahaa.

anyhooos, Nicholas called the mother of the owner (by searching for the number in the phone) and it was all settled. phew.

and we really salute that bangla dude, man. he was very honest. i doubt that any other bangla or Singaporean would do the same. well, ok.. i would. heh. *winks* but i bet there's some out there would immediately claim that the handphone is theirs if the incident occured. shish. caya sama lu ah, bangla !

hoho.

ok, despite the "events" happening, i'm so bored at work. Xue Yin took leave (grrrr !) and i was left with nobody to talked to.

ok, i lied. there are great people there as well. but not one whom i can really open up to, ya know ? haven't warm up to them, yet. but they have been great colleagues :)

i want to know Xue Yin's current story !! the SI dude ! wooohooo~ oi, remember my "motive" ok ! must ask him if he's still in contact with Taufik. HAHAHAHA.

ok, i was kidding.

oh yeaaa. i'm going to be on leave the WHOLE OF NEXT WEEK, PEOPLE ! weeee !! i think i'll swing by TP for the open house and see those sad juniors, still schooling. hahah !

ok, actually i envy them. here's the bloody truth: I MISS SCHOOL.

yep. i miss the lectures (i'm sane, really.), my poly mates, the picnics we had during lectures, the note-taking (again, i am sane.), the slacking at the study tables during break, the cafeterias, the library.. everything la !

sobs.

i want to be a kid, again !

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Down*

as James Morrison quotes:

and i know that it's a wonderful world;
but i can't feel it right now.
well i thought that i was doing well;
but i just want to cry now.

that's exactly how i feel. right now.

well i know that it's a wonderful world;
from the sky down to the sea.
but i can only see it;
when you're here, here with me.

have yet to meet the "you".

ok, that was a totally random entry.

and i'm having a bloody headache la !

bleargh.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Charlotte's Web, sucks*

i didn't get to watch my Flyboys. the only seats available were the ones two rows from the front. like hell i'm choosing that seat.

so ended up watching a talking pig in action.

and people, don't watch it. it's really, really, really.. not worth your movie bucks.

like really.

oh look, a talking pig, trying to save itself from being slaughtered for Christmas. whoopdeedoo. what a brilliant, brilliant plot. -_-"

i didn't know why i agreed to watch it. maybe because all my other friends are watching it. and my lil sis.

and the fact that those bloody movie-goers just have to occupy the back seats for Flyboys on that very day and left me with those sad, front row seats.

bloody.

and i checked that Flyboys will only be showing at Vivo. at 6pm. which is not possible for me to get there in time as i finish work at 5.30 and too pokai to take a freaking cab to catch the show.

wargh. angry redy ahhhhh !!

first i didn't get to watch The Departed, then.. The Prestige.

and now this !

warghhhh.

well at least i get to see my poly friends. miss them loads ! and Ben's BOTAK HEAD.

wakakakakaka !!

and it's amazing. i just realised that today, Ben didn't take any photos !

WOW ! BEN ! NOT TAKING PHOTOS !

it is indeed, a miracle, everyone.

hoho.

k i'm off to Lala Land.

to those still in primary/secondary school:

HAPPY SCHOOLING ! *EVIL LAUGH*

:D




i go through all this,
before you wake up.
so I can feel happier,
to be safe up here with you.

Monday, January 01, 2007

New Year's Day*

it's the New Year, everybody !

i've been wishing everyone a Happy New Year when i started to wonder. what's so 'Happy' about a New Year ?

i mean.. it's just another year. another ordinary year. it will be no different from the previous years. well, except for the fact that we all get a lil older. which sucks, by the way. but oh well.

other than that, it's just a year.



people at the countdown: Happy New Year, guys ! WOOOO !
me (watching the countdown): why are they so happy about the New Year ?
dad: all these people pretend to be happy.



i mean.. although i've been greeting everyone with this 'Happy New Year' phrase.. just face it, it's just a phrase. in the end, we just carry on with our lives. just changing the .2006 to .2007 in dates.

ok before i sound too pessimistic, i guess a New Year might make things a lil better.

let's all pray that it will be a better year for this world. no more wars, which very unlikely just by looking at Bush's sad lil face and those freaking retarded extremists. a lil less of those natural disasters, which is possible but it's all in God's hands. and eliminating poverty, that is if all those rich celebs would just get their feet back on the ground and actually do something.

and let's pray that this year would be the year when most of us gets what we worked hard for. a better-paying job maybe. or get the one we've been trying to get attention from. a new car. a new house. or something.

new everything.

as for me, my only New Year's Resolution is to pass my freaking Driving test. which i doubt i will by looking at my 'progress'. but hey, anything can happen right ? insyaAllah. the world is round after all.

so here's to all optimistic individuals out there.

have a very Happy New Year. :)




shut your eyes.
and sing to me.