dreaming out loud. . .

Friday, March 31, 2006

Train of Thoughts*

so i'm sitting here suddenly thinking..

why the hell people like Sean Paul ? i mean.. can you understand a single word he sings, raps, whatever ? i don't. heck i don't even understand what the hell Patrick (of FallOut Boy) sings ! but that's Patrick. their songs rock. so that's different.

i get sick and tired of MTV when all they play is Sean Paul's Temperature and Jamie Foxx's Predictable. please la. we don't need cheap girls to dance their butts off in these videos. potraying the negative side of women nowadays. what ever happened to R-E-S-P-E-C-T ?

sorry. got a lil carried away there.

make meaningful videos, dudes. like.. potray a story or something. sometimes i don't know what these directors are thinking. making predictable videos with these girls who will be, no doubt, all over the singer/ rapper.

we want MCR ! we want FallOut Boy ! we want Kelly Clarkson ! heck, we even want Click Five (even though their vid's getting more irritating by the minute due to the girls' deafening screams) !

as you can see. i'm not much of a hip hop/ r&b fan. but Black Eyed Peas are not that bad. i love the new Pump It video. cool effects. hate My Humps song. it's so gross k. and Fort Minor's another exception.

but i don't like Beyonce. period.

argh. yes i'm bored. that's why i have redundant thoughts that i just have to blog about. to kill the time.

i've been watching TV alot these days. re-runs, to be precise. re-runs of AI5, Amazing Race 9, CSI(s) and.. looking forward to Lost Marathon. please, please, PLEASE let there be a marathon.

yes, watching re-runs. the culture of the bored, lazy.. and the unemployed. hope the schools will call me soon or i'll die of dire boredom. call me k ! heh.

and my apologies to the Sean Paul's, Jamie Foxx's and Beyonce's fans. i can't help it that i'm opinionated.

i'm not afraid of losing you.
you can lose what you never had.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

//later that afternoon..

Dengs*

was with Gudik (lil sis) and were on our way to meet up my sister at Tamp when we bumped into none other than Riduan on the bus. yepyeps, that "Sudin" heheheh.

striked up a conversation and did a mini catching up. then he just have to bring THE matter up. he asked, "Aisha kenal sape abang _____ ?"

-_-

dier kenal eh ? dengs. haha.

and i knew he's gonna bring that topic up. typicaaaalllll. i mean. almost all the secondary school guys i know still associate me with him. -_- why ah ?

ok, don't answer that cos i know the answer. haha.

anws, then i asked Riduan this question. this stupid give-away question that i wanted to ask him ON MSN but not, you know.. face to face. and what surprised me was i wasn't surprised at myself at all when i blurted out that question. it was like, i wasn't thinking. it just came out. cis. paisey2 ! haha. and he wasn't surprised either. haha !

talked some more until we parted ways at the MRT station. nice to see him again. same old merepek him. ahaha. some things never change, ya ? haha.

ohyea to Riduan: don't know if you're reading this but kau jangan bilang dier bende merepek2 eh. kalo tidak.. "lebam bijik mata kau" hahaha.

Tag ! You're It !*

due to Mus' reaction to her pic posted in the previous post, i am obliged to remove it even though i blurred it alredy ! hahaha. ape la Mus. not buruk larr. tsk. hehe.

anws.. here are my replies to you taggers. thanks for tagging ! =)

BeN: i don understand what u two are talking abt. por favor eh
me: i don't understand what YOU'RE talking about. haha. klar. posts will be put up in english as far as possible. heh.

urLOVELYcuzzy: pink ke ape????hahah.
me: erm so ? haha.

mus*: oi oi oi ! tu dare pic of mine SUX! atleast take a more decent one can.. this one BURUK LA. off offf offff!!!! prisssssss!!!
me: OKOK ! done. btw tak buruk LAR !

rad*: haha! NOO its NOT NICKELBACK!! ahaha! Muss where gt rukbu! its blurred sumore =))
rad*: n Fizahh! wahhh "datGUY" zamann sebelum sikat sia! hruhrur. ehh zaman sikat sec 2 or 1 ? lol
rad*: nnn ur blog is pinnkk! haha juz like ur bagg. weeeeeeeeee
me: haha ntah ! i think sec 1 AND 2 ? AND 3 ? hahaha. yah lorr. don't know why i think of him. dengs. yepyeps. pink ! just for the sake of choosing a colour for this layout haha.

lut: wah..last tyme muke sik jijah now sik jason mraz iyer..lol.i noe y its pink!!bcos of the title "geek in the pink" ryteeee?!!lol
lut: err fiz..i wasnt thinkin abt someone.dat person is so not worth my brain cells..lol.i was juz sleepy n malas nak catch up wif u guys..so far away hmph
me: elijah wood will be back after this layout haha. anws yah lor. he's so not worth it. who ask you to sleep so late ah ? haha. and.. pemalas sey. bukan nyer kita jauh sngt hehe. =P

Nardeeyah: wei y the werding so small..i cant see a thing..ahaks
me: really meh ? you use I.E eh.. use Mozilla lar. Mozilla ROCKS ! hehe. klar, i'll try to do something about it. btw miss you lar girl ! take care ok !

fai: haha..dah la dulu ko hug lamp post..now ko jadi bodybuilder lak..haha..if onli aku, din n hafeez was there..we will give u the support..haha
fai: btw..ko la paling lmbt kat Mugchicks & Co..kalau kwn ko lagi lmbt dari kau, aku rasa hafeez mati kelaparan tunggu korang semua..
me: you guys will never see me flex ok. NEVER. hahah.

FeEz: aku tahu sape pop up! NICKELBACK!! lol! n ben.. I DOWAN TO SPEAK ENGLISH!
FeEz: oit. kong asam. kalo part mati, MESTI aku eh? sipot tol. anw, cik rad~ oh cik rad~ NICKELBACK sape ar?? curiosity is killing my stomach!
me: shuddup you. like she's gonna tell you eh. haha FAT CHANCE.

thanks again for the tags !

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Whole Again*

yesterday, i went out with my dahlings: BFFs ! goodness, you wouldn't know how much i miss this lovely bunch of people.

met up with Lut at LJS bustop, who initially didn't want to go. but due to dear ol' me, she went. aaaawwwh sweet kan ? Lut so sweet ! thanks Lutty ! that is, after much persuasion. i wanted her to go cos i wanted all of us to hang out, like old times ya know ? zaman sikat ! haha !

ehem.

anyways, the rest didn't know that she was tagging along. when we reached there, as usual, the rest haven't reach yet. [to Mugchicks&Co: see see, lambat2 aku pon, BFFs aku lagik lambat ! so bersyukur siket eh ! =p] so Lut and i went to Giant to for some air-con cos it was so freaking humid k this Singapore. urgh. after purchasing some stuffs, went back to interchange to meet the gang. waited for Rad then Shefa (subhanallah. dekni lambat satu jam k. haha.) great to see these familiar faces again. =)

had lunch/dinner by the beach courtesy of Zack and mum. delicious ! thanks ! =D

played Truth or Dare after filling our stomachs. Mus and myself had to do stupid dares ! iyer. mine more embarassing can ! *covers face* well, the pics below say thousand and one words.

eh, alamak. blur pulak. hehs.

fyi, i was dared to flex my arms like some macho body builder. total embarassment alert ! *covers face some more* and Mus was dared to hug the tree intimately haha.

rented bikes soon after. rented a double bike with Shefa and rode almost to the end. talked and updated ourselves with one another's lives. [to Shefa: go go GO ! ;)] returned to our spot to find Lutty lying there all by herself. she didn't seem to be enjoying herself as much as we did. awh Lut, forget about the paper or.. whoever you're thinking about (i know you know). so not worth it, aight ?) Shefa and i hijacked Rad's camera and took pics ! hahahaaha. such cam whores. that's my accidental identity, fyi. haha.

and made writings on the sand..

took more pics. i esp love this one of Shefa ! so blue~ so blog-layout-y hahaha. and i was the camera woman. *winks*

the rest of the gang came back and took more pics !

and it's a wrap.

had a fun time with them. only it would be even more fun with Nurse Nad around. NAD, NI CAI NA LI AH ?? gosh, i miss that girl !

ohyea. playing the Truth or Dare game earlier, i was thrown with a Truth question. one that is the all-time fav Truth or Dare question: who do you like ? haha.

i anticipated the question before it was even asked. and before anything, one person popped into my mind.

i don't know if i still have any feelings for him. he just, popped that's all. you know when you open the Jack-in-the-box for the 1st time and out comes the ugly looking clown ? sort of like popping out ? when you least expected it ? it was something like that. ok i lied. maybe i expected him to pop up. ok then it wasn't a random thought.

i just.. think of him.

is that considered.. you know.. something ?

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Bribing the Future Generation*

rosdi: *comes to our home* Aisha mane ?
mum: Nuraisha pegi ngaji. tunggu dier balek ah. nanti leh main.
me: *from inside bedroom* eh eh EH ROSDI !
rosdi: *comes into room* saye ?
me: boleh buat kita favour ciket tak ? *full-of-hope smile*
rosdi: mmm.. boleh. ape ?
me: ah rosdi budak baik kan. ahh. nanti kalo Aisha tefon umah, Rosdi leh amek dier dari umah nenek ngaji ? (cos i was too lazy to don a hejab just to fetch my lil sis from nenek ngaji's house with is like.. only on the 6th floor -_-)
rosdi: mmmm..
me: kita kasi awak..... *thinks* SUSU HL ! *with an eager smile*

his eyes lit-up and he said, OK !

Monday, March 20, 2006

Don't*

i've been a very bad friend.

just..

don't give up on me yet.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Piss-Me-Off Day*

you know what i hate most about Tampines Mall ?

the Mats and the Minahs.

if i could just refer you back to my entry dated: 14 December 2004, you'd see that i had an encounter with a Minah who called me a female dog. just because i walked past her and accidentally hit her hand.

and today, i met a Mat, who could be destined to be her soulmate. and together they will breed and make the world a more depressing place than it is already is now. just hope that won't happen.

anyways, i went to Tampines to accompany my sis as she wanted to buy some handphone accessory. stopped by the Arcade for awhile because Gudik wanted to play some games. so, i went up to the counter to convert a dollar into 2 tokens while my elder sis waited at Daytona. after getting my tokens, i turned and saw this Mat. he must be around 15-16 ? whichever, budak ingus k. his friend was behind him. so to get back to my sis, i had to walk past him. then, sik dungu ni looked at me, leaned his elbow on the counter, purposely blocking my way. with his macho face, acting as though i wasn't there. he looked at me with disgust k. and so with my irritated face, i did what i never thought i'd do. i walked past him, knocking him hard on his right shoulder. hard k. i heard him flinched but of course, i didn't give a damn. it was like a reflex action k. if i were to think before i do anything, i would have screamed at him to get out of my face. whichever, i'd never thought i'd do any of it. i'm usually very patient in these kind of things. at most, my subconscious self would be the one babbling and coming up with ideas on how i should have handled the situation. or i'd babble to my friends. i'd take it in stride cos i'm one who believes in Karma. i know it was just a teeny-weeny incident to deserve such a reaction but i was in a bad mood k. he picked the wrong day to mess with me.

he and his 4 other dungu friends stared at us as though fiery lasers would come shooting out from their eyes. being a tall boy, plastered with the "macho" impression didn't mean i should be scared of you k, Mat. didn't mean that you're a boy, i should be scared of you k. (i'm quite a feminist.) and me being a tudung girl.. wait.. a Muslimah, didn't give you the right to treat me as trash k.

Mat, oh Mat. you better look in the mirror if you wanna see a true-blue walking trash. and that's a fact.

my apologies to other Mats in the world. these insults are not directed to you.

unless you're him.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Rock Steady*

"sneaked out" of the house just now to meet the badots with the initial intention of buying something for Sulala. yeps, she's coming back tomorrow !

in the end, we ended up at the Esplanade due to dear ol' me. hehs.

i wanted to meet Jason Mraz. yes yes i know you need tickets for his show which costs $48 each. and yes, i also know that the concert tickets already been sold out. but being me, i thought there's always a slightest possibility that the geek might be walking around at the Merlion or something, admiring the Little Red Dot. i mean, him being not so popular among Singaporeans, might just be walking around without any security guards except his manager or something. i mean.. it's possible ! my sister's friend saw Raul and Beckham at the Esplanade wearing straw hats, walking around at the Esplanade while they're here the other day ! i mean. RAUL K ! of course their straw hats didn't make good camouflage devices cos they were spotted by some people. k back to Jason Mraz.

i mean.. i COULD have bumped into him or something ! right ?? oh well.

we COULD have, if we reached EARLIER. way WAY earlier. i think.

before heading to Esplanade, the boys went for Asar prayers at Moulana while i waited outside with their bags. then came along this weird old man, ranting something-somethings to mid-air. yea, he wasn't in a healthy state of mind. and God knows how many times i prayed that he will not come near me. yea, i know it's kinda mean. but hey, you would be scared too. especially if he's nearing you, carrying a hideous mask in his hands. so, he walked on.. from afar, ranting/chanting God knows what.. then stood like.. a few metres away from me. he turned to me, (and looked at me, i think. wasn't sure cos he's wearing shades. yea, i know. groovy right.) and started making crying sounds at me. for a good 5 mins ! that was the longest, most scariest 5 mins i have ever experienced sia. he stood there, just "crying". and i was like.. Goodness. why me ?? and everyone there was staring at ME. instead of him. what the.. they might be thinking, poor girl, the unfortunate centre of his attention. when he went on and on.. and showed no sign of stopping, i was on the verge of crying ! called Din but there was no reception so i had to just endure his antics for awhile. luckily, the ice cream man approached and talked to me. finally, a hero. well, not the HERO i have always imagined but, he was a hero for that moment. heh. he assured me that this is nothing compared to his strip-and-run-naked antics that he does sometimes. GOODNESS. thank God today's not the "sometimes". i would be running away by then.

then the ice cream man went back to his stall, which is located somewhat next to me. i felt safe eh. hehehe. then, after he was done, he walked on. phew. thank God he didn't come any nearer to me. i'd scream. really.

ok whatever after that went to Esplanade with the hope to bump into Jason Mraz, but didn't. went up to the rooftop. memories from two different occasions came flooding into my mind. one, good, fun time. and the other, not so fun. more like embarassing. and just thinking of the latter makes me angry, sick and totally disappointed at myself. but that's a different story.

then, went down to the stage-thingy in the middle. i dunno the name of the place.. outdoor theater eh ? think so lar. Rivermaya was scheduled to play at 7. and who the hell is Rivermaya ? we didn't know. soon after, found out that they're MTV's fav band from the Philipines ? something like that. eh, they're DAMN good k. though, i didn't understand 85% of what they sang (due to language barrier) but they sure as hell rocked the place. well, cos basically 90% of the crowd was made up of Filipinos. fuuh some sang their hearts out. so yea, rock on people ! the guitarist's damn good. so is the drummer. the bassist's not so bad. and the lead/keyboardist DAMN CUTE K ! hehehehe. and his voice, DAMN NICE. and of course, the music rocks. one of their songs sounded like one from Incubus. cool. i LIKE ! k feez, download lagu dorg (english + filipino) pastu SEND AKU K ! AMANAH K !

didn't get any pics of them though. ni lar camera-man kita. sighs. hehe. and anabelle francis' skirt damn nice. heh. k. then back to Moulana before heading home. and my dad called when i was almost reaching home. hehehe. he didn't mind. except that he still insisted me on finding a job.

hahhhh. malasnyer !

somebody owns you now..

The Dreaded Conversation*

dad: *passes TP letter*
me: *opens the letter* Dear Graduand, we're pleased to inform you that you have completed your course (or something like that, i forgot).. blah blah..
dad: oh, da dapat results ?
(err. due to my bad results, the thought of telling him that i got my results slipped my mind. hehs.)
me: oh da.
dad: so how ?
me: okok ah.
dad: ok je ?
me: ok ah. dapat C+ for project.
dad: aik. dulu slalu dapat A, B abes skrg dapat C ?
me: bukan C. C+. ader "+", pak. *sheepish smile*
dad: macam takde difference je. C jugak.
me: -_-
dad: so, what's next ?
me: errr. ntah.
dad: tak gi carik kerja ?
me: erm.. tgh ah carik ah ni. sort of.
dad: tak nampak pon piza carik kerja ? tak tgk suratkhabar ?
me: nanti piza tanyer kawan piza ah pasal TSO pat skola ke. atau guardian ke.
dad: abes kawan2 kau tu kerja ke tak ?
me: erm ader kerja.. ader tak.
dad: abes yasmin ?
me: dier April baru carik kerja. skrg dier tgh clear driving license.
dad: ah abes gi lar blajar driving dulu.
me: takde duit ?
dad: bapak ader ape.
me: tak nak ah. nak pakai duit sendree.
dad: haiyer. abestu ? tak apply U, tak carik kerja, tak amek driving lessons, takde duit, maseh nak kluar2 ?
me: abestu boring sey pat umah.
dad: gi lar carik kerja. takmo cerewet. ape kerja yg piza dpt, amek je. dapat kan experience.
me: k.

he's so right. what am i doing ? i didn't apply for U, nor do i look for jobs. and i still wanna go out. so, yea. gonna cut down on my outings.

i'm so lost right now. i don't know what to do. i'm just so damn lazy to go and look for a job. i, basically, want to do nothing. cos it's boring and fun at the same time.

but one thing's for sure. I AIN'T GOING BACK TO TTSH.

wargh~

and when the stars fall, i will lie awake. you're my shooting star.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

BAH !*

i HATE TTSH lorrrr.

gimme stupid project and i ended up with a stupid grade for it lorrrr.

now my stupid GPA also go down siaaaa.

i worked my stupid butt for the past 3 stupid yrs lorrrr.

and this is what i stupidly get siaaaa.

now my GPA 3.11 lorrrr.

IDIOT KAN !

ERGHHHHH !

okok fine. SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH that i passed !

ok i'm both happy and sad at the same time.

could have done better.

GRR.

i'm still trying to figure out my life..

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

The Reunion*

here's what i've got from Youtube.com:

it's a clip from Gilmore Girls season 6 ! yea, i've been watching Gilmore Girls season 6 even though the 5th hasn't ended on ch5 hehehs. got lost at times but catching up =)

anws, Rory and Jess jz makes a CUTE couple right ! Jess aka Milo is sooo damn cute ! gosh, i missed seeing him on TV ! i love the way he talks ! *melts* well, he kinda reminds me of someone. haha~ well not a total replicate ah. some hidden similarities, i guess ? *shrugs*

i wanna see the "Tomorrow-night-at-8" clip ! gotta go find it !!

anws, later on we will be sending Sulala off at the airport for her umrah. will miss her sobs*. 2 weeks without her. imagine that. wonder what will our outings be like hahah. ok Sulala, take care on your way there and back. and focus on your intentions ! forget the cute arab guys ! hahaha. pray for us here back home. especially about our SIP/MP results !!

and this sending-off thingy clashes with my BFFs plans ! ergh not again ! sorry guys, i promised to send her off. hope we can watch FD3 another day or something. if not, then that's ok. =) you guys go enjoy the show for me. miss you guys loads.

hmms.. i wonder if i should tag along for the jamming sessions later..

ok, no.

what is it about first love that you can never forget ?

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Aaahh~*

finally, i get to sit down and watch Just Like Heaven (for the 3rd time. heh) after a tiring day.

i didnt realise there's so much to do at home and it can keep you occupied for like, almost the whole day ! sheeeeesh. is this what being a housewife feels like ? B-O-R-I-N-G~

anws, i think i have this thing of watching the same old movie like over and over again. i mean, when i was young, i watched The Parent Trap for at least 10 times over a duration of a week. i know i know.

and for the record, i've watched Narnia for 5 times, Harry Potter thrice and adding on to Just Like Heaven. heees*

i know.. and i never get bored ! i even stayed up till 2am to watch the ending even though i can practically memorise the lines !

i amaze myself sometimes. really.

this only means one thing, i need to get out of this house before i further worsen the condition of the DVD player. maybe look for a job or sth ? i dunno. too lazy for that actually. hahaks~ but of course, the money problem. ergh.

so since i'm bored and waiting for Smallville to be on, i decided to do the following (taken from my frens' blog):

SIX THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
1. computer.
2. 3 comfy beds.
3. warddrobes.
4. study tables.
5. airconditioner.
6. a guitar (not used even once. hahaks !)

SIX THINGS YOU SAY MOST:
1. what the..
2. duh~!
3. shut up.
4. whateverrrrr.
5. i'm rolling my eyes~
6. hah ?

SIX THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. my family.
2. my friends.
3. entertainment (tv + music + internet)
4. my hp.
5. my wallet.
6. food and water.

SIX OTHER THINGS:
Do You/have you:
1. Believe in God?
without a doubt =)
2. Had a dream come true?
erm, if you consider the pair of rollerblades i wanted back when i was in pri 3, then yes.
3. Read the newspaper?
erm.. yah ?
4. Play an instrument?
yea ! the recorder ! i got A when playing Kooka Burra ! (is that the spelling ? hmms)
5. Have a job?
yeps. dun ask abt the 1st job. zzzzz.
6. Attend church?
never. =)

Have you ever:
1. Gone skinny dipping?
err NO ?
2. Had surgery?
nopes.
3. Swam in the dark?
yea, once i think.
4. Been to a Bonfire?
yeps ! school's bonfire
5. Ran away from home?
actually, yea. with packed bags and all ! the furthest i went ? the staircase of my floor. hehe. i was lil and i figured i got nowhere to go so i returned home. hehs.
6. Played strip poker?
not for me.

SIX THINGS IN THE LAST 24 HOURS:
Have you...
1. cried?
nopes.
2. sang?
oh yea. all the time, actually. hahaks. of course got comments like, "OI PIZA DIAM LA"
3. Been kissed?
yeps. by lil Gudik !
4. Felt stupid?
yea.
5. Talked to an ex?
no. i wish to tho. ssshhh.
6. Wanted someone?
not today.

okie thats done.

btw, i love Mark Ruffalo in Just Like Heaven ! love his accent ! he's quite cute too =)

you're just like heaven~