dreaming out loud. . .

Friday, December 31, 2004

Heheheh..

made a mistake in my prev entry..
not 850,000 but 85,000. hees.
melebih je aku ni..
thx Lat~ tho i dunno who u are or maybe i do but forgot or sth. heh. sowie

but now i heard it's more than 125,000.
sighs.
oh well..

anw went to sch at 11 for my bpharm tutorial.. then got quiz.. -_-"
calculations somore.. eeeeeeeee maths... i hate~
made some stupid mistakes.. as usual.. *hits head*
after that had PLM lecture which ended early cos it's a half day..
weeeeeeee..
met up with mus n rufi n we were off to collect the items for the Tsunami victims~
went to several blocks.. knocking on the doors asking them if they have any spare stuffs to donate..
didnt have much luck in the 1st block.. but things got better as we progressed..
wanna say thankies to those who donated.. thank u so much ya~
no matter if it's $7.20 (frm this teenager.. i think she dug up her savings.. awwwh so sweet~~ thanks~) or jz 2 cans of baked beans.. they're appreciated..
some cant donate cos it was sorta a short notice for them.. yea, it was kinda a last min thing.. so they didnt quite prepare anything..
it's fun doing this volunteer thingy.
i mean.. u feel good ya know..
aint no better than satisfaction.. *smiles*

then while collecting stuffs.. we thought, why not ask ishaq belo to donate oso..
n since we havent met him for quite some time now.. so might as well right..
n mus miss him mah~~ *wink wink !!*

thought of meeting lut but she went off early due to some emergency..
so me n mus met up with ishaq to collect the stuffs he bought..
semamat sik mamat ni.. go buy the canned food sey.. haks.. maceh~
oh yes.. we were kinda excited to see his BOTAK head. hua hua !
NS kapaaa.. botak kapaaaa.. hua hua..
omg.. his hair so funny ! hahahahahahaa.
bkn tak penah nampak org botak.. cume tak penah nampak ISHAQ botak.. hua hua..
v-shape fringe lagik kau............................
*rolls on the floor laughing my butt off*
hehe. klar2.. i shall stop making fun of him..
but but.. i got take pic of him n his botak head.. should i put it here, mus ?
hmms. haha..

passed the stuffs to rufi.. n then headed for Shaq's block where we waited at his void deck while he went home for alil while..
then Ishaq gave us a treat~ weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. but still the movie treat is still on k.. haha~ =p later our turn to treat u lor..
ate n hung out for lil while..
see see we do hang out k..
n to think some of our guy frens think we are goody-two-shoes n too "baik" to hang out with guy frens..
ok what the hell.. hahaha.
alamak.. we both relax wan lar.. if u guys ask us to hang out with u all, set jer..
if not, then fine lor.. right mus ?
haha..

laughed alot as usual..
the Ishaq-effect.
then he made lame jokes with a str face.
k wait.. str/stone/muke slamberk face.. hua hua..
n now terror redy.. can disturb me redy.. shish.
king kong ajar kau..

"so far so good.. so far ? sofa takde.. kerusi ader.. sofa mahal ah"
ok Ishaq jgn nak MENGARUT~

mus kinda felt better..
n told him face to face abt the whole disappearing-suddenly-with-no-news-of-how-he's-doing thingy..
tau2 jer masok NS..
oh well.. gasak dier lar mus..

after that, waited for him to take some Swiss Chox but he came down empty-handed..
apparently, it's finished..
tak gune tuls.. haha..

since Ishaq wanted to take a nap before goin fishing, me n mus headed to bedok intch..
bought some sushi n jz sat ard n talked abt stuffs.
till ard.. 8++
then went home~

nx wk i'll be heading hm right after sch guys..
need to study for THREE quizzes.
what a bore.

it's gonna be New Yr's soon.
Happy New Yr guys.
tho i dun really see what's so happy abt it..
considering how 2004 ended.
with a disaster.

but as Kelvin said..
it's not 2004 ended with a disaster..
it's 2004, the distrastrous yr has finally ended.
a more positive way to look at it..

Yas read the papers abt one Masjid (somewhere in one of the Tsunami-hit countries which i forgot) stood still while all else ard it were ruined n destroyed.
MasyaAllah. Subhanallah.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Pls be a kind soul.. even if it's for a day..

after PA1 tutorial (which is pointless cos we didnt do much) n hanging out at the pc lab, me n fizo went to the donation area which is at the entrance of TP..
have u ever stopped n actually looked at the photos ?
OMG. it is devastatingly sad.
there are photos of fishes.. yea i know.. fishes ?? all u care abt are dead fishes ??
no, mind u..
these fishes are no ordinary fishes.. these are the fishes found uberly DEEP in the sea.
n they were swept to shore.
imagine how strong the waves were.
IMAGINE.
the guy in charge of the booth told us that the waves were travelling at 1000km/h (if i'm not wrong)..
n once they got to shore, they didnt return to the sea (like any normal wave would)..
instead.. they travelled 100km further up n onto the lands..
n before they can even return to the shore.. another wave came in.
IMAGINE.
the last time i heard, the no. of dead ppl rose to 850, 000.
fizo predicted that it will reach 100, 000 soon.
n there are photos of parents crying over their dead CHILDREN.
there is even one showing these ppl clinging to their dear lives.
gosh.
i thought, that's it.. i'm not gonna jz sit ard n blog abt it. i shall do sth.
n so.

CALLING ALL PPL !
the ASc peeps are organizing an event which is the Collection of Aid supplies for the Tsunami victims. We are going from block to block to collect these items which include: Canned Foods (Baked Beans, Sardine etc), Dry Foods (Instant Noodles, Rice etc), Bottled Water, Medical Supplies (Panadol, Gloves, Bandages etc).
if u can, pls donate some of these items..
if not, u can join us in the collection of the items.
Tmr (31st Dec 2004) 12pm till 3pm.
Meeting/Donation area: LT 14 (level 1) of AS block.
all kind souls are welcome~~

or

Call 1900-911-1110 to donate $10 to the Victims.

ok GO ! do our part okie !
no matter if ur gonna go the Nation's Countdown or whatever.. this is more impt !

hmmms.. kinda like Paying It Forward, duncha think ?
i mean.. ur doing sth good n HUGE (to them) for not 3.. but MILLIONS !
IMAGINE.

anw after that, went to the lib to do our tutorial..
then fizo went to French n left me all alone. sobs sobs. heh.
went to level 8 where i can be left alone instead of the lib which is super keduper freakingly cold..
n i was looking at the sky.. jz thinking..
no ppl.. doesnt mean that i sat there alone n looking at the sky means that i'm in a jiwang mood ! shish. no time for all these man~ *nods as a matter of factly*
i imagined the Tsunami waves hitting TP.
imagine those waves hitting against the buildings..
causing the roof to fall over n such.
n the chaos it will create.
Nauzubillah !

yes, jz IMAGINE.

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Firstly..

happy 18th birthday NADDEE !!
yes, the last bday for month dec ! phew~
hehehe..
sorry cos i didnt get to meet ya jz now.. so so sorry !
u know.. sch.. *bleugh*
alrighty naddee (eh rhyme !) hope turning 18 means being more responsible k ! takmo lambat2 lagik ! haha~
May Allah bless ur yrs ahead n May this inspiring nurse become one of the top nurses in cin cia po~ ;)

anw..
i feel so sick..
not that i am.. well, at least not yet..
i've been sneezing here.. sneezing there.. *archim* here.. *archim* there..
sighs.
n it's been raining nonstop..
not that i dun like the rain.
woi, berkat dari Allah woi.. mane leh tak suke !
i lovveeee the rain actually~
jz that.. it's TOO cold !
oh well..

saw the news again today.. abt the tsunami thingy..
so many were killed by the disaster n it really opened our eyes, ya know..
i mean.. indonesia.. *bam*.. malaysia.. *bam*.. india.. *bam*..
us ? jz a slight earthquake which is experienced by a only few neighborhoods..
not that i want us to be hit by it or anything..
i mean, how lucky is that ?!
still, it's so sad watching the news..
there's this donation thingy happening in sch..
dunno how much i shd donate..
hmmms..

Sunday, December 26, 2004

A hero will rise.. or not.

watched Stephen Chow's Kungfu Hustle on Friday with my BFFs as sorta a celebration for Raddee~
u guys jz HAVE to go watch it !
the movie was stomachaching-ly hilarious ! yes, Stephen Chow nvr fails to make us laugh till we can't laugh anymore..
there was 1 part where u can't stop laughing for a solid 5 mins i think.. hahah.. jz thinking abt the movie makes me laugh..
n super sweeeeeeeeeet oso..

we were kinda late in booking the tix cos SOMEBODY nvr reply to my msg.. haha.. =p
but fortunately the theatre wasnt entirely full.
we got front row seats for the movie tho.
first row = the worst bunch of seats u can ever get in the theatres..
BUT turns out, it's the best !
well not entirely the best lar.. but it was fun having to sit in front..
with mus n shefa lying on the floor..
wah relax sungguh ! cos nobody can really see us..
i sat sideways at the end with my legs dangling at at the side.. hehe..
so comfortable man..
we should choose these seats for Meet the Folkers k guys ? haha..

before heading to the movies, we ate ice cream at Gelare or sth like that..
shish.. so xpensive.. but delicious !
missed the waffle ice cream man~
*thinks abt A&W*

anw.. watched Pay It Forward yesterday..
i must say that it's a very meaningful story..
i mean, exactly how many ppl are willing to do sth good to 3 ppl..
not jz good.. but HUGE..
somewhat like giving ur car to another for free, no strings attached..
heck, even giving up ur seat for the elderly is sth huge..
no, we dun see that often.. well, maybe those who gave up their seats are the middle-aged men/women.. we dun really see ppl like us do that, do we ?
Haley Joel Osment is sucha brilliant kid actor, duncha agree ?
considering Sixth Sense n how he can potray himself as a sensible, serious person as well as a playful mischevious kid (all at the same time) in Pay It Forward..
jz hope he wont turn out like McCauley Culkin..

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Birthday Alert !

well, actually it was yesterday (24th Dec)..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY RADDEE~

sorry for not posting this yesterday..
was dead tired when i got home hehe..

anw hope u enjoyed the movie (KUNGFU HUSTLE !) & the ice cream treat very much !!
hehe..
May all ur dreams be in hands' reach..
May ur life be blessed by Allah~

oh yes, the movie was super keduper great..
super hilarious..
n so Stephen Chow..
go watch kie !

more abt the outing later..
need to study for my quiz !
cauzzzz..

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Untitled II

to ppl who think i'm in a bad mood,
i'm not.
lately, i feel like keeping to myself.
i dun feel like telling certain ppl stuffs cos i know they dont have the answers.
or, they have their own stuffs to worry abt.
so why bother ?
why waste my time n ur time ?
at times, i get too lazy to talk. n that's when i keep quiet.
once again.. no, i'm not in a bad mood.
i'm in my dun-talk-to-me-n-leave-me-to-my-Reader's-Digest phase.
my bffs are my exceptions.
no offense to the rest.
it's jz that 6yrs is long.
n they're the only ones whom i trust dearly.

to ppl who think i am avoiding u,
i'm not.
it's more like a.. not seeing eye to eye thingy.
ok, u may call it avoidance. but it's not.
it's.. um.. complicated.
i'm old enough to be responsible for my own gawdamn actions.
n i have my reasons.
so yea, dun bother.
it's not like ur gonna miss out on sth big or anything.

i wonder how many girls are in my place right now.
sighs.
it's hard being the one to always take care of a guy's heart.
n i mean ALWAYS.
why can't it be the other way round ?
why cant some guys get it in their thick heads that it's never gonna happen ?
why am i seen as the bad person here when i'm jz being true to my heart ?
why am i always in this position ?
sighs.
oh well.
screw them.
i'm gonna live my life, my way.
even if it means that i'm gonna stay single forever.
ok wait, that sounds scary. haha~
i live to be happy.
k that's lame. but whatever.

anyhow..
was walking ard bedok intch with mus n lut when we heard someone shouted, "PEACE TO THE WORLD" at ard 8++pm.
i was like.. Santa ?
but no, it was some Eurasian lady riding a bike.
she stopped in front of us n started talking to us abt Christianity n Islam.
compare n contrast kinda thingy.
i dunno what her motive was.
i think she was preaching. either that, or she was jz being TOO friendly.
no, she didnt diss any religion.
she kept saying that she respected Islam n all.
n we were like, err yea we know.. now shoo shoo~
hahah..
it's not that i dun like her or anything..
i mean.. it was a super keduper awkward moment.
for a moment there, i thought i was on Gotcha.
cos it sure was hilarious. the expressions on our faces i mean.
she was smiling of course..
being frenly n stuffs which i totally respect.
the thing was.. she kept goin.. on n on n on n on n on n on............................
she even quoted sth frm Bible.. complete with the sections n all.
i was like, super cool man ! amazing memory power !

after that, we thought she rode off cos she said, "ok take care ! buh bye ! peace to the world ! have a merry christmas ! take care of ur health !".
BUT. she kinda made a turn back at us. n started talking. AGAIN.
this time, i couldnt help it.
i turned my back on her. n laughed.
SOWIE ~
really really x 10000 couldnt help it lar !
cos u know what she said ?
she said Jesus n Prophet Muhammad are actually brothers.
n that caused me to laugh.
n mus (i guess she lazy to entertain her alredy) said "err ya i suppose"
haks. nice one mus..
lut, on the other hand.. did what she does best, buat bodoh.. haha..
but that lady's a nice person.
tho i dunno if she's ok.
but she's nice.

anw anw..
ATTENTION !
my 3200 will be ok by TMR !!
weeeeeeee heeeeeeeeee !
take that, apiz !
muahah..
yes, my dad sent my hp for servicing..
yay !!! thankies dad~
wait, i didnt force him to fix it k.
he called, n told me that my hp will be ready for collection by tmr !
heeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeee~~

wee wee wee wee weee WEE~~ !!

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Sighs

yesterday, someone said sth that called me back to Earth.

i should stop this stupid infatuation.

stop it.
stop it.
STOP.

thx mus for slapping me back to reality.

sighs.

anw, 1 piece of super keduper gd news !
i passed my ugama exams~
3rd position in class !
frm the front, i mean..

weehee !

sooo happy~
tho i didnt study much..
only remembered what i studied during classes..
n i failed my Arabic by 1 mark.
but 3rd in class, beb !

Alhamdulillah, segale puji bagi Allah~

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Happy Birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyy !!

to FANA & SHEFA !!

May Allah Bless.
& May we be Best Frens 4ever !
*smiles*

oh yes,
to mus: sure nots ??
want another encore ??
hmms..
wait, lemme save money 1st lor..
but wait, what do i get ?
hmms..
half bottle of TrueStar !
kan kan kan ??
MUAHAHA !
whoopee..
n make sure u dun back out on this one..

but,
the deal IS off..
right ?
hmms..

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Untitled.

jz because i'm too lazy to think of a title for this entry.

anw bought new jeans blah blah blah.
fast-forward to what happened at TM.

was walking along the shops at the interchange when i ACCIDENTALLY knocked into this Minah senget who was walking in the opp direction.
well, i walked too fast i guess that i didnt realize that my hand knocked against this Minah's.
so as a NORMAL, n polite person would do, i turned n said "Sorry".
n u know what she called me ?
well she used this generic term to call female dogs.
yep, THAT word.
i was like what the HELL.
i actually said sorry. n MEANT IT gawd damnit.
but NOOOO.. she jz have to call me that.
with her face scrunched up like some keropok lemau.
ah lawa lar tu.

female dog ? speak for herself.
if i were to follow my heart, i would have talked back.
but instead, i let it pass n babbled to my frens instead (sorry guys.. hehe).
call me a goody-two-shoes or whatever..
it would be useless to fight with a Minah who seriously lacks some cloth on her.
pegi poda lar.

hanya Allah jer ader balasan nyer.
CEY.
but it's a fact.
*shrugs*

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Guess what ?!

MY FON IS DEAD !!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!
*cries*
aaalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrr..
how how how ??!!
1 min, i was listenin to Usher & Alicia Keys - My Boo on my fon's radio..
n the next: silence..
i thought the batt was flat which was impossible cos if it is, the fon would kinda indicate to me..
ARGHHH !!
now i'm gonna have to use my old hp (which is my mum's now)..
not that i dun like my old hp..
i like my 3310..
but i LOVE my 3200 !!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Sleepy

feeling super sleepy right now..
i think i'll go to sleep right after this..

anyhoo, accompanied my grandmama n my mum to a Syarahan that was held at Tamp Stadium.
didnt know what the Syarahan was abt until i reached there.

Rumahtangga: Syurgaku atau Nerakaku..

-_-"
shish..
marriage ??
again: -_-"
oh well..
since my grandmama isnt always ard..
so, yea.. why not accompany her for a few hrs.. ?
plus, i got some useful info. abt my future..
haha RIGHT..

while listening to the talk..
heard some running n giggling at the back..
n guess who was it ??
none other than mus's lil nephew, Syafiq !
soooooo CUTE SIA !
pipi so tembam yet body so small..
haha uber cuteness i tell u..
but mus wasnt there lar.. haiyer u ah..
femalas.. haha..

oh um.
sth happened jz now..
n i cant describe what i was feeling..
erm..
happy ? i think..
relieved ? definitely..
ermm..
sad ? i think so.. jz a lil bit..

but it was really unexpected.
i'm smiling right now tho it wouldnt sound significant to any of u..
but it is to me.. i think..
jz a lil bit..

hmms..

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Fly

some pix i took while at Changi recently..

since i was a lil kid..
i always wished that i could fly up to the sky..
n jz fly with the birds/butterflies..
with nothing to worry abt (xcept gravity, that is..)
carefree..

i'm wishing the exact same thing right now..
how i wish that i can jz soar up in the clear blue sky..
leave this world n get away frm all the madness ard me..
the matters of the heart.. friends.. sch..
everything..
i wanna feel free..

i jz wanna be free..

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Game Over

my Feeling-Pathetic Phase will blow over.
soon.
i hope.

anw BIRTHDAY ALERT !
it's Lutty's Birthday today, y'all !!

Happy Birthday LUTFIAH !!

gosh, she 18 redy !!
hahaha.. coolness !
alrighty, all the BEST for the future Lut !! DUN EVER give up ur dreams man ! (like taufik like that *winks*) hahah..
6yrs ago.. Lut was so super quiet siaa.. haha.. BUT now different story.. hehe..
hope u like the gift we got for ya, sweets !

May the Almighty Allah BLESS ya !
*muacks*

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

I feel..

stupid.

pathetic.

i'm so so DAMN pathetic.

why am i doing this to myself ??

i should be out with someone new.
move on with life.
like any other single girls would do esp when the relationship was over 3 ++ freeeaaaaking yrs ago.

maybe that's what's holding me back.
HE'S holding me back.
u think ?
i dunno.
i dunno why i'm not into the guys who wanna to get to know me.
i'm not into what they are goin to say, or what they are goin to do.
i'm not into them.
i think i jz regard them as my frens..
ppl will say.. as they call it in malay = jual mahal.
but it's not that.
i dunno why !
i'm so messed up.

here i am again..
getting tangled up in my feelings.

n i dreamt of him.
thrice.
forgot what they were abt.. but they weren't nitemares..
they were kinda .. pleasant ? sweet ?
ard there..
but the dreams were gd dreams..
know what i mean ?
i guess dreams will always be dreams..

some1 actually told me to meet up with him n talk abt it.
gosh, no.
i'm a coward.
a ciken.
i dun do confrontations.
its jz not me.
i get scared.
n not forgetting shy.
or maybe even teary-eyed.

but i guess i do deserve this one way or the other..
maybe this is exactly how he must have felt.

i'm so pathetic.

yes

i

am.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

You know you miss someone when..

. all of a sudden, when u least expected it, those memories comes flooding back.
. u remember the jokes/funny antics he did during sec sch.
. almost all guys u see, resembles him (frm afar).
. u heard ur frens say his name when actually, they were talking abt sth else.
. u smiled (like a stupid idiot) at this kid riding a bike cos he looks like the yger version of him. n the kid would probably think that ur insanely insane.
. u suddenly remember some of the funny things he said during ur conversations.
. u start to listen to stupid, sappy love songs.
. u went to as far as asking his fren for his no.
. ur heart skipped a beat when he replied to ur msg.
. u dun dare to talk to him outside tho u really wan to.
. u get tired of all the other guys ard u.

i think he's avoiding me for some reason.
maybe cos he's shy ?
or maybe cos he got some1 new or sth.
or cos i was unfair to him so he kinda havent forgiven me yet.

sighs.

i'll have to get over him. again.
yep, that's what i will do.
of course i can do it.
i think.

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Mad Season

1. my sis is going to the Newboyz Open House which will be held nx week..
the Open House is hosted by the band's lead singer, Shah (most commonly known as Tomok) himself.
apparently, she's FRIENDS with them now.
my sis = a Newboyz fan.
weirdness ?
tell me abt it.

2. my yger bro is a pc freak.
he keeps his butt glued in front of the pc playing Gun Bound.
when he's in the Gun Bound world, anything u say will enter frm the right ear n will come out thru the left.
he keeps hogging the pc.
day n night.

3. the paper which i thought would be the easiest paper turned out to be a killer.
n Hadith, which i seriously did not study for.. at all, turned out to be ciken mc dodol.

4. school is on Monday.
n i'm so not prepared for another sem of competition with the brainiacs.

there's sth seriously wrong with the world right now.
make way for Mad Season.

Friday, December 03, 2004

Stinks.. Stinks.. STINKS !!

my timetable, stinks.

BIG TIME.

1st stinking thing abt it: i got 20th Century Fashion as my cds when i don't have to take anymore CDS.
-_-"
when i wanted that, TP gave me stinking Basic Nutrition.
now then gimme this one.
what's the freeeeeeeeeaking use ?!

*breathes in.. breathes out*

2nd stinking thing: i have APEL2 (yes that stinking merepek-nak-mampus subject) on SATURDAYS for 4 FREAKING HRS.

*breathes in.. breathes out*

ARGH.
this ARGH is not meant for the timetable.
this ARGH is meant for my life right now.
i'm sick n tired.

breaking hearts everywhere.. n i cant do anything abt it..

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Idol Crazy ?

nuh uh.. not me..

but i'm still not gonna disclose how many times i voted for taufik..

no, no.. u wouldnt wanna know..

for some1 who nvr watched more than 1/2 hr of SG Idols eppy..
i voted way too many..

WAY WAY too many..

but, it's all worth it..

TAUFIK IS THE IDOL, BABY ! WOOHOO~

honestly, i dunno why the hell i religiously watched Idol jz now..

i've nvr been interested in this whole local Idol crap. i swear.

BUT.. tonight was different..

i watched.. n i was mesmerized by Taufik's voice..
n disgusted by Sly's.. (sorry rad..)

fuh, thank gawd he won..

i had a hunch that Sylvester would win.. but fortunately i was wrong..

woo !

i'm one happy Tweety Bird..