dreaming out loud. . .

Sunday, February 29, 2004

argghh..
yes, i am sick.. again.. betul nyer weak ah fizah niii..*sighs*..
days ago, had a light-headed feeling in my head.. thought it was nothing.. so carried out my usual day and sleep.. then tau2 jer the next morning, my temp rose.. to 38.6 siia... wah lao.. crazy.. then that day my frens are going to accompany nad n lut to take their results in sch.. i really wanna go siaaa.. but lut told me not to as i was sick ah.. *sighs*.. should have been there to celebrate with them.. btw congratz nad n lut~ told u guys everything will be alright.. *wink wink*.. hee..
anyways, yesterday i was suppose to meet yas, shema, emily, julie n ailin for my CSAS project at 10 in sch.. but i couldnt wake up sia.. so msged yas to tell them that i couldnt make it due to my weakkneesss.. aarghh.. *sighs*.. looks like i'm presenting the work on monday.. againn.. oh well, since i didnt contribute to the discussion, might as well spare my teams mate from presenting.. then found out that, i wasnt the only one absent for the meeting.. phew.. ailin n shema was nowhere in sight too.. ok.. guilty conscience lifted..
anyhoo, i think i'm gonna fail JAVA siaa.. shoot man... the last qn for the paper..i did answer.. 3 paged answer tau! while yas n yew yee did only 1 1/2 seyy.. how can an answer be 3-pages long?! unless its an essay qn ahh.. urghh
ishh.. now my lil bro n lil sis are fighting with each other.. over what? over a stupid playstation game.. everyday have to put up with this crap siaa..ahh stress.. yes, this is my life .. life at home.. life unknown to my frens..

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

this afternoon went to sch to do my uir project.. it took us just 1/2 hour to discuss.. phew.. then, i went to AS free access to continue with my report since i got lotsa time.. when i got there, it was full.. so i went to the IT JAVA lab.. skali locked.. then i went back again the free access.. got a computer.. n tried to log in.. but guess what?
i forgot my friggin passwerd.. arghh.. i actually forgot, can u believe that.. tried a series of passwerd possibilities but failed! then what the heck, went to the library.. met fana, she was also doing some project. went in, found a computer.. n still no passwerd.. so, last resort, the cyber centre.. on the way, i prayed really hard that the centre was open.. and thank gawd it was.. i was desperate sia for a computer.. not that i cannot do at home, its just that i cant open nadiah BIT nyer uir sample kat umah.. ader VIRUS! serious.. my pc detected a virus on that script.. wah lao.. aper sey nadiah.. rabaks..
so gi lar sch nyer.. heheheh.. but nothing bad happened to the pc.. no computer blowing up somewhere.. hehe.. and yay~ finally i've ALMOST completed my report.. still working on some modifications.. hee..
now, i have to go see what i have to do for CSAS..
*sighs* PROJECTS! there seem to be no end to them.. btw, i got alot of mosquito bites siaaaa.. where the heck do these friggin bloodsuckers come from?!

Saturday, February 21, 2004

YAHUUUU~
yay yay.. my term test wk is officially OVERRRR!! *dances the end-of-term-test dance* now, i can play the net ( unfortunately for my sis hee ) and watch movies!!
btw, just now the JAVA paper was quite tough esp the multiple choice and the last qn... the rest i can do ahh.. i thought i can get full 20 marks sey for the rest.. but i cant cos i got some friggin careless mistakes!!!! eeee geramnyer i felt like screaming siaaaa...and i feel like screaming right now!! how dumb can i be seyyy................. *sighs*.. oh well whats done is done.. all i can care about is not studying for at least a wk! hehehe.. weee~ but once again, my joyous moments are short-lived when i found out that i have to come to sch on monday for UIR projectt!! *sighs* ever felt like the world is conspiring against u? well, i have... ahh pasal lah.. eh in 4 mins time got John Doe! i like sia that show.. like got pyschic2 kinda thing goin on with that guy.. woo~
anyhoo, nad told me that the O level results will be released on 27th.. and she's worried sick about hers..
BEST WISHES TO NADDY & LUTTY~ u guys will pass.. InsyaALLAH.. =)

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

Mission Possible..
yes, it is possible. not to log on msn for at most, a wk! hehehe.. wooo~ i cant believe i didnt chat for a wk! ahahah..
but of course arh, after a wk, i just had to give in to temptation.. hehe mus ah ni.. she called me while she was chatting.. ishhh.. so, my rehab failed. so what..
anyhoo, just now had my biochem paper.. wah lao.. i think sth is seriously very wrong with that alvin poh.. 1 qn = 20 marks?! wassup with that? that is like.. 1/2 the marks for the whole paper!! ishhh.. pyscho kapa? but thank gawd i did study the whole enzyme regulation crap
if not, fail lar gini.. but yas didnt study that part.. then she was like.. writing down a whole different story to that qn.. but she sure can pass arh.. then, shazni who was sitting next to me.. wrote ALOT sia.. make me panic jer..ishh. dowan sit beside him anymore ah..
btw tml no schhhhh!! yay! hehhe.. but have to study HAP ahhh.. mampus.. alot to memorise.. yet here i am, updating my blog.. for what? ..for fun ah..then on saturday, i have JAVA... omg.. takder harapan ahhh..
haiz..
anyhoo, i'm watching this vid ah.. outkast + will hung + some college guys.. haha funny sey.. but shian will hung.. in my point of view, i kinda look up to that poor guy.. like.. he has the guts to be on American Idol.. n now he's a STAR.. wah. best. i watch this vid bcos of the college guys.. hahaha.. cute ah.. but
mcm budak2.. like.. total losers with nothing to do but make fun of ppl.. cracks me up man.. lagi2 part "Shake it like a polaroid picture".. satu2 joget mcm kene current sey.. ahahahah.. but i love the songgg.. HEYY YAAAA~
btw i need to study! ehh.. fizah BLAJA LARRRR..!

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

Say it, I'm DOOMED
aahhh.. mampus.. i'm gonna dieee.....! DIE! this morning had my math paper.. n the paper was not THAT difficult ah but the friggin prob was that there was not enough friggin time for that friggin paper!! argghhh... kkay seriously, i think i'm gonna flunk this paper.. when i first started doing qn 1, i was like.. yay i can doooo! 2nd qn.. well okay but i didnt finish the last part.. qn 3.. same as prev.. qn 4???? HARAM TAK BUAT.. ( the qn.. MEREPEK NAK MAMPUS! ).. the last 2.. did them but.. as usual semi-completed.. i just dont understand maths ar.. thats the only subject.. from i was a teeny weeny kid till now, i still CANNOT master.. why? whyyyy??? ahhh no point crying over spilt milk.. all i can do is pray .. hope that lecturer has mercy on me ( and the rest who are on the same boat as me.. ).. and let fate take its course..
anyhoo, tml i got BIOCHEM.. i finish studying redy.. but i still dont understand certain parts.. the notes are like.. sooo confusing.. too many repeated slides that just drives me crazy.. really, and the lecturer.. he was like.. practically READING from the notes.. ok arh. he got explain abit2 ahh.. but.. stilll............. urghh.. i cant wait for this week to be over... then i can go watch MOVIEEE~ YAY..
yea... only 4 days, 96 hours, 5760 minutes and 345600 seconds to goooo!!

Sunday, February 08, 2004

Perfume of Innocence??
ahahah.. i've been called innocent by afandi. ader dier kater.. my face looked like a person going for election against bush and i lost n bush won.. (?????) tak faham sey.. hehe
these are the words afandi used to describe my face (i dunno where the heck he got these words from):

angelic, chaste, clean, cleanhanded, clear, crimeless, exemplary, faultless, free of bad, good, guilt-free, guiltless, honest, immaculate, impeccable, impeccant, inculpable, irreproachable, lawful, legal, legitimate, licit, not guilty, pristine, pure, righteous, safe, sinless, spotless, stainless, unblemished, uncensurable, uncorrupt, unguilty, unimpeachable, uninvolved, unoffending, unsullied, untainted, upright, virgin, virginal, virtuous....

ape saje jer tau.. ahhaha.. full of crap. as usual hehehe...

Thursday, February 05, 2004

LALALALALALALAAAAA~
elo its me again~ hehehee..
look at brandonnnn!! hehehe.. malas ah nak buat blog sendree.. later ah kays?
anyhoo, i'm so damn bored right now.. tgh layan rin.. ahahah.. we were like *hold thumb to index finger* this close to meeting him sia.. but he changed his mind at the last min cos got shefah.. ahhahahah.. KECOTTT.. heheh.. n we were acting like.. really weird.. we actually WANTED to meet him. yes, believe it. for the 1ST TIME EVER! n it will be the last time. i think. dont expect me to be as enthusiastic as i was cos i'm not. ahahahha.. anyhoo, just now saw him... ahahaha pakai baju kotak2.. like me~ hehehe.. fated arh.. *pukes* but when i talked to him eh, i forgot why i was mad at him. but now i remember redy arh.. HMPH..

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

Crazzzzzyy.... OH OH OH CRAZZYYYY!
ok arh excuse the britney song at the top...
aaaahhh i'm seriously going crazzyyyy!! possible causes: studies, people, my adek2, studies , studies.. and yepp u guessed it.. STUDIES! kay, i dunno A THING about stats ( the probability n whatever crap ), too much of info for A&P.. whenever i'm in A&P lectures, i can seriously feel my brain turning into goo.. Biochem.. hmm ok lar.. then there's Java. HAIZZZ.. it is quite difficult ( not to scare u,mus ) but once u get a hang of it, it will be ok.. i think..
anyhow, i dunno what happening to me these days. firstly, i didnt hand up my A&P tut on time cos i FORGOT to do the 2nd qn. then, i wrote my tut class as TB05 instead of the usual TB02. then, i even forgot to put chili on my siew mai! ishh really, i dunno what's on my mind these days. then.. ader term test in a week.. n am i prepared for it? HELL NO. but life must go on.. even if it means pulling my hair out every time i'm stressed out...

"...Console.writeln("I suck at Java");"

Sunday, February 01, 2004

selamat hari rayerrrrrrrr!!! = )
yay 1st entry for mth february!! and it's rayer! yay yay! hee.. but today is kinda boring arh.. nothing to do or watch.. so, i'm blogging. about what? about nothing. heh.. btw, i need new clothes! hehehe.. yah.. i'm really in need of a new one.. a kurta, or a blouse, or a new skirt! hee.. i think i'll go ask me dad for some money.. = P